The details of my Christmas

I went over to my Mum and Dad's house on Christmas Eve and practically passed out because i was so tired. I was literally in bed and asleep by half past eight.

Christmas morning came and i got on everybody's tits because i took a couple of hours to do my makeup. Haha. I started getting ready before they even got up and all i heard for the last half an hour was 'are you nearly done now, sweetheart?'. They didn't get stressy with me though so that was nice.

When we went downstairs, we were greeted by rather a large amount of presents - it was wonderful. I don't do the whole Jesus thing and don't buy in to the idea of church but my gosh i believe in presents. Materialistic? Yes. Bovvered?

Presentssssss

We spent a good 45 minutes opening presents and giving kisses and stuff.

Chantelle and I shared a moment and got a bit teary from telling eachother of our love. And this was before the drinks.

My darling sister sat in Mum and Dad's room :)

Dinner was erm...well, i don't want to dwell on that too much because christmas dinner in a house where there is someone with an eating disorder that is very much in control of them is never going to be shits and giggles. But, well...in true US style, we managed to take the piss instead of dwelling on how sad stuff was. There were a few tears over the gravy (and i am not even joking) but then that was fine. I stuck with having boiled veggies and gravy. Nothing more and nothing less. There was a massive pile on my plate and i ate it all up like a good little girl. It was so yummy.

The only point where i felt really really sad was when Mum was like 'I didn't realise how bad it had got until today'. That was not nice. But hey...que sera, sera.

Yesterday was one seriously messy messy day. I started drinking at 2 and got absolutely wrecked from one drink. I hadn't eaten much so it went straight to my head. Passionfruit Daiquiris are the work of the devil. SO YUM though.

I don't remember getting home and i have absolutely no idea how the hell we even got home.

All i know is that i was way too drunk

Today was mostly spent in Meadowhall which took mental to a whole new level. Not even joking, it was absolutely fecking rammed. I wanted to scream. But i didn't because it was fun. It started to calm down at about four and then it was okay, thank heavens.

I bought a new eyeliner and five new eyeshadows plus a little gift for a friend of mine whos in hospital. I shall have to send that soon but i don't know when i am next going to be going to a post office. Probably Wednesday.

my christmas nails

Speaking of Wednesday, LK is coming up.

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Its been a lifetime since i last saw her. SEPTEMBER is about three years and twelveteen months away.

Wooop

Eurgh. I hate that food has to make me so nervous though

Last time was a bit sad and i want to do whatever i can to make it okay but, truth be told, i am scared about that.

Bloody good job i love her and that she makes up for it :)

Awhh. Bless. I am excited :D