'Well, you look like you're at a normal weight' (LOTS of swearing + massive rant)

Guess who said that.

CPN? Nope

GP? Nope.

Random stranger in a bar? Nope

My fucking psychiatrist, that's how

So, thanks for that, you absolute grade A arsehole.

I didn't just sit down and take it.

I KNOW what size i am and i said just that to her. I don't think she expected me to go quite so animated in the appointment.

'Why do you professionals feel like commenting on my weight is acceptable? WHAT PART of that comment do you think will have a positive effect on me? Do you really think that helps?'

'Well, i am sorry if i have upset you but i obviously have to see whether you're at a dangerous weight. Its not just you - i do it with everybody.'

'YES. I know you do. You do it and they don't say anything! I am saying something because i am sick of people being irresponsible and want to protect other people from being hurt.'

Fucking didn't know what to say then, did she?! Silly bitch.

So far today, i have eaten the equivalent of 87628624 horses, 87326783208908 houses and a fucking planet.

And no, its not her fault

but her fucking irresponsible comment has fucking pissed me off

Can somebody tell me how it is that a PSYCHIATRIST can make physical observations when they're meant to be interested in what is in my head?

I said the following:

'So you want to assess whether my weight is dangerous? Do you professionals really think that my weight is any reflection of how bad things are? Have you listened to what i have just told you? To how i am taking 60-100 laxatives EVERY SINGLE DAY?!'

I swear i wanted to kick her in her stupid face.

Like i don't know what size i am.

THINK IT. WRITE IT DOWN. Say it in to your fucking overpriced fucking dictaphone and get your underpaid, overworked secretary to type the shit up but do you really need to say this crap out loud in front of me? DO YOU THINK YOU'RE HELPING? REALLY?!

fuck off to all of the people that think that the fact i have a fucking eating disorder makes my weight a free-for-all. I look at it and judge myself enough without you all fucking looking and decided that because i am a fat fuck, i am okay and everything i do is 'healthy'

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