YoureLateForTea

I went online yesterday to buy a couple of new books. I wanted something i could really get my teeth in to and after hearing rave reviews on The Millenium Trilogy, i thought it would be a great idea to order The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo. It should arrive at some point this week and then i can have a good read.

I really struggle with reading at the minute, what with my Depression and the difficulties with concentration that go hand in hand with that. However, i really do miss reading and i long to get lost in the world created in the pages. Plus, a trilogy will keep me busy for a while :)

Have any of you read it? What is it like?

Today is a lazy Sunday. I was up a lot in the night with the normal stuff and need some chill time today.

Tomorrow, i am meeting my family to go to a presentation thing for my brother's media course. I am not even completely sure what it is but i am quite nervous about it. If you had ever met my family (namely my mother) you would understand. I really do struggle with being out and about with Mum. Our relationship is extremely strained at best and at the moment, we seem to be having some issues, again.

When i say 'we', i mean she. SHE is having some issues.

I was over there last weekend and she started an argument literally out of nothing. She is having some issues with her Depression at the minute and i, of all people, can relate to that. What i cannot relate to is her having no consideration for the feelings of other people because she really doesn't believe that anybody could possibly have feelings because SHE is the centre of her world and believes she has to be the centre of everybody else's too. It drives me insane and is really emotionally exhausting to spend time with her.

I don't begrudge her Depression and am actually really trying to be empathetic with her, even when she started the argument last week i said, 'I am really sorry i made you feel like that, Mum. I never even realised' but it was not good enough for her.

I hate family gatherings.

I like spending time with my Dad, brother and sister but time with Mum, paired with her inconsideration of my Dad's Multiple Schlerosis and her (I NEED ATTENTION. I AM POORLIER THAN HIM attitude) partnered with the big theatre and all of the people, i am not going to be at my calmest. I can assure you of that.

I think i may have to have a stiff vodka or two beforehand.

All for the love of my brother!