Tuesday, 26 April 2011

Self soothing.

If it was not for self soothing behaviours, i don't think i would have been able to manage today. Last night was awful. Today, i am awash with feelings and its bloody horrible. I was sick again this morning. Randomly. Ugh. My face is ballooning, so i cancelled both of my appointments. I can't be seen today. No way. NO NO NO

Anyways, i didn't want this post to be all Captain FML. Flip the bed.

So, when i used to see my old counsellor, she spoke to me about self soothing behaviours. At the time, i was self harming quite a lot and needed something to just...to care for myself without making some big gesture. Without having to FEEL like i was loving myself. As far as i was concerned, i didn't deserve love and i certainly didn't deserve to care for myself.
The self soothing that i found effective was stroking. Just to have a fluffy dressing gown or my lovely kitty, just to stroke and soothe. Like when a baby needs some comfort, and you stroke their face...it really does work for me when i am very down. It sounds crazy but it genuinely works.
Today, after being sick, i just stayed in bed for a couple of hours. I hugged my gorilla teddy bear, George, and stroked him. Its calmed me. I still feel like absolute shit and i am tense as hell but i feel calmer, which means i feel less daunted by life.

Thank you, George. You sexy little beast! haha.

I sound like a mentalist. An actual mentalist. haha.
Posted by Charlene Sparkles at 17:07

3 comments:

  1. Aisling GallagherTuesday, 26 April 2011 at 21:59:00 BST

    i understand completely- i still take my toy rabbit around with me a lot in the house, and when i was really ill, i would bring him outside and put him in my bag etc aswell, it really does help, even if it sounds a bit weird.
    xxxxx

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  2. Joanney-FannyTuesday, 26 April 2011 at 22:37:00 BST

    He is a cutie! Haha
    I have a beddy bear, and when I feel really down or whatever I bang him in the microwave and then cuddle and smell him (I think I burnt him once so he smells like biscuits or something and it's lovely), it really soothes me.
    Either this is more common than expected, or we are a bunch of whack jobs ;) xx

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  3. Hit The Nail On The HeadTuesday, 26 April 2011 at 23:17:00 BST

    I have a polar bear called Polo that I've had since I was a kid :) I can't go anywhere for longer then a few days without him, even holiday :D He came to America with me and everything hahaha

    xx

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