My fear has lapsed

Yess. I am so happy that my appointment tomorrow is no longer going ahead. Yess.

I called the nurse lady earlier today and said i hadn't had my tests done. I basically said there was no point in going to the appointment tomorrow. She said that there was but that i could cancel if i wanted.

So i did.

Yess.

I can't even tell you how anxious i was.

I feel so much lighter in my head.

I am so relieved. Thank fuckery fuck!

Hmm. Time to wash the shitty dishes and take the shitty rubbish out.

Then i am going to go to bed.

Goodnight world.